Talk Without Speaking

All this hashing out of past friends and stuff has, strangely, left me in a pretty melancholy mood. I mean, it’s fantastic to have re-created these connections but it’s also brought up some other stuff from the past that I guess I would have rather have had stay forgotten.

It’s funny what sticks in your head.

I know myself well enough to know that this won’t last. I’m just not one to stay moody for too long. If it gets too serious I’ll just turn Coldplay off and Avril on and all will be well, surely.

My demons usually stay pretty well under control; they are generally well behaved considering that they are demons and all. I’ve been feeling sensitive lately though and obviously they have been biding their time. A recent phrase, a recent look and that was all they needed to flash into full-blown snarling, gnarled beasts which ripped across my mind, tearing and biting as they go. As close as a blow as something like that can be, I was left feeling like bursting into tears and just collapsing.

Shouldn’t this stuff just be…gone? Isn’t it all long over?